Big words, recycled phrases & the bittersweet taste of other boys on your lips
Went aunt's place. :D I managed to hoax Jermaine to sleep. That sweet little girl slept for almost the whole afternoon & the afternoon for cousin & I was so pleasant. Watched the telly, channel 55. :D I forgot what's the show title. Watched a little of MTV & after that changed to the korean vcds aunt bought for mom. It's in chinese 'cos aunt bought wrongly. Heh, I laughed evilly at mom. She wants it in Korean. So now I can watch it without having to change to Nicam or Mono on the telly. :D Cats on the Rooftop, that's the title of the vcds. Hm quite nice. Jermaine woke up & I tried to make her go back to sleep again but failed. I asked her the forth time & she said she wants to get up. Ok, actually it was my fault. I was playing with her & she became energetic. :XX
She got up & I went to sleep. Rofl, damn tired 'cos I slept at 5am last night. >:@ Talk about this later. Slept for an hour & ate dinner. Texted baby the whole day. She hasn't reply since I had my dinner. Boo, I guess she's sleeping or something. Bah! Went back home after that.
On a lighter note, Zel's going for Camp tmr & I'll be alone till Tuesday. :D Hohoho! x) Damn happy. Ay wait, actually no. I'd miss her. (I hate to admit that) I'd have no one to disturb other than Mom(she has become one of my targets, haha), no one to share my fuckedup day with, no one to complain to, no one would answer when I call "Fatty". Ok, I know I'm damn evil(cos I'm much fatter than the way she is) but she calls herself "Big butt". -.- & my maid's her "small butt". (Actually it's good, we're more like friends ay). I will survive without that retard for two days & a night. I've got my retard girlfriend to entertain actually. :)
Granny isn't looking good. :\ She's becoming like some bamboo stick & I don't like but I don't have a choice. Now she tell us that she actually regret not listening to advises in the past. Like mom, she always tell Granny not to eat so much sweet & salty food but Granny just don't listen. Then now.. ): I hate the feeling of I-know-I'm-gonna-lose-her-soon. 'Cos that was what happened to dad's eldestsister which makes her my aunt. She amputated her left leg all the way to her thighs, stayed int he hospital for very long & there she goes up to heaven. Though the both of us aren't close like other aunts, there's a bond between us. Like dad's stepmother, I call her Granny. She lloves me, that was what everyone tell me. Once, during CNY, I went up to her place for lunch & she bought some egg-slicer for me. For me, yes. I wonder why she did that too. Until she told me this, "Girl ah, egg very big. I bought this for you. Easier to cut ok. Come I show you, later you go it yourself ok." At that time, I was still young, in Kindergarden 1. I didn't know what was all that about, until recently. I looked into the photo album & I teared. We went Bangkok together once & we took a photo together. I was scared but Godma insisted. So I did, stand next to her & al. At her funeral, I didn't dare to look at her in the coffin but I cried. When they pushed the coffin into the burner, all I could do was just pray that she rest in peace. The scenario at that very moment, still plays in my mind sometimes. The same thing goes for Grandpa. I was in Primary 1 when he passed away. Mom told me over the phone & I cried like mad. We weren't close but I can feel that he loves me a lot, just like how he loved dad. Mom asked me to fake tears behind the coffin & I didn't. The tears were real. But I was glad when I know that Grandpa didn't die of illnesses but he died in his sleep. Gawd, how much I wanna go back to the past & cherish the memories.
Hm.
Life & Death.
They cause misery, sometimes.
Oh 5am! I got home after dinner at 9pm yesterday. Decided to do some work before I start using the com & hog on the phone with baby at night. She went pub with her family to celebrate her mom's birthday. No texts, no missed calls. I texted her a few times using Zel's phone & there was no reply still. So I watched the telly until 2am & she finally replied. Gawd, I was still so clear & I still got the patience to wait. I kept telling myself not to blow up. Yeah & she called at 245am. All the way till 4plus going 5am, nothing else but silence. I don't wanna mention what we talked about. I was in fucking pain 'cos of one thing she said. I hung up & thought, why did I even have the paitence to wait for like 6 hours!? Sigh, glynis oh glynis.
Cheryl, I'm right here if you ever need someone. :)
The same thing goes to Cel. ♥
Marcos Hernandez's The Way I Do is nice. :)
Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.
:]
Agree?
I do. :]
I'm left with english news articles' reflection part. :D Yay, I'll do it later & I'm all ready for school. I realised I haven't taken a photo with the girls for a very long time. Hm, I wanna go Prata House tmr! Anyone? :]
Never thought I could love you the way I do,
<3,
7:49 PM
Mend this broken thing./
(
)
MidwestLoveAffair-@Blogspot
